Wednesday, December 17, 2008
love is tearing me apart.again.
Sometimes,even if you're a million times better than someone--be it physically,mentally or in every aspect, that someone could posses something you could never have -- The heart of the person you love most.i myself have proven this.and it's really hard for me to accept that fact.
call me a stuck-up,snotty,self-centered bitch.
i honestly believe that i am ALOT better than her.(all caps,bold faced,bitch)
the feeling kills me.you chose here,instead of choosing me.
i did every single thing just for you to like me.
but,i failed.:|
you know what, i feel really stupid for saying this -im still willing to do anything for you even if i know that you wouldn't the same for me and that hurts,more than anything.
Not being loved back doesn't hurt the most-what really kills me is knowing that i'm not good enough for a guy to love me back.
it makes me feel that i am not worth choosing.(this happened for the second time BTW. this hurts more than the first time)
it seems like everything is all about love these days. it's not even funny. i feel really left out these past few days. but im gonna bounce back. i want a lover. go and find me one.all the drama- it's all because my lovelife is non existent. im disgusting.
omygohd.i just noticed.the whole blog entry is in english.FIRST TIME.yey me.:)
-fuck,i know i'll be over this.
i am.egotistical.MADELEINE.mothereffin'CRUZ.
iisupahflyxx15ii
9:58 PM